Clare, Bea and JJ :D

"Run baby run, don't ever look back. You'll tear me apart if you give me a chance."

love,

JJ

Ingrid! Bestfriend!

I love you too sister ;)

this is for you. :D

dear you,

I'd hug you so freaking tight right now if I could.

its so hard forgetting our friendship.

I have never forget you, infact.

I was touched by whatever you said just now.

I will be there for you when you're lonely.

I will bring you light if there's no more light in your life.

I will give you the warmest hugs when you're feeling cold.

BEST FRIEND, I will love you forever.

when you're back, I'll bring you to the beach.

we'll scream all our troubles and sadness out.

we'll carve our memories on sands

and let the waves wash them into forever land.

just so you know,

we'll be best friends forever (:

best sisters you can ever find in this world.

♥♥♥

love,

JJ

COLOURS

I LOVE PRAVIN KHAIRA!!!!!! :D TTM

not anymore.

"Two or more people who share everything with one another, knowing they can be trusted. People who would, if needed, take a bullet for their friend(s). Two or more people who, through all the new friends, new hobbies, new jobs, rough times, and high school, are always there for eachother, no matter how busy they are. A best friend is someone who can make you feel better no matter what."

I thought I was just pmsing.
turns out, I'm not the one.
you said, I don't know anyone of your friends.
but when I saw the photos, I knew like, 95% of them.
and yet neither of you who apparently "loves" me,
had the initiative to ask if I could go or invite me.
here I thought, I was just being self-centred.
but I guess, I now know how much I mean to you.
no matter what outing I go for, I still invite you.
I get the permission to.
the reason is simple.
cause you are my best friend.
and to think I'm your best friend too.
so I guess you don't know the meaning of a true best friend.
its not someone who takes you out for fun only.
but you know what.
I've given up.
you can erase me from everywhere.
cause I had enough.
I don't need a best friend if this is how I'm treated.
I feel like garbage.
but whatever.
this is life. I have to face it.
don't tell me I'm your best friend when I'm actually not.

don't fucking tell me you love me when you fucking don't.
ALL OF YOU.

love,
JJ.

dear you,

i'm sorry, i'm gonna rush through this post cause it suppose to be my dinner time right now. anyway. i know you're really angry with them right now. but don't get those losers affect your life okay? think about those who loves you. you know i love you and its sad to see you like that. i'll give you a hug tomorrow to make you feel better! smile soon. ily.

xo,

JJ.

your voice was the soundtrack of my summer.

Because of you guys, I've learnt to love netball even more. ♥

We achieved 2nd place on Friday's competition. I guess it was quite an achievement cause our team had the least 18 years old. Although, I didn't get to play, it's alright cause there's always a next time. Anyway, I had quite a fun time screaming, shouting and cheering for the team. Besides, I didn't intend to play.

Saturday was Cow's birthday party @ Universal's. It was fun although there were only like, 5 scary rollarcoasters? Didn't take Jurassic Park cause both was closed in the end. So, we kinda ended up taking at most 7 times of the Mummy. It wasn't as thrilling as I thought and its quite fun. Just that we took too many times that it became boring. Yeah. Bought a necklace and went for Twelfth Night again.

That was how my weekend was. Kinda. I'm stressing on my book report and art right now. I don't know what to do. Help!

I don't know what to do with you anymore. Even though, I have this strong temptation to punch and slap you in the face, I WON'T. Cause I'm not that nasty. But please, stop annoying my sister. You're 15, apparently older than us, so you should be mature than us. But no, you behave exactly like a 10 year old. Do you have a brain? I'm pretty sure you do. So, stop copying her like some clone and think before you speak. FYI, we don't need unnecessary information about your life. WE DON'T REALLY CARE. You're so damn immature. You flirting is one thing, but you're purposely joining band so that you can replace her. Put yourself in her shoes, you would feel damn hurt okay. Anyway, just so you know, you're not good. Honestly speaking. I swear, you are damn self-centred. I'm trying my best to be really nice and to tolerate all your bull crap. But sorry, I think I should let it go now. I can't take it anymore. You're hurting MY SISTER here, not me. I wouldn't really care if it was me.

love,

JJ.

lets get back to where we lasted.

"Many people will walk in and out of you life, but only true friends will leave footprints in your heart."

I have the sudden urge to start blogging again. But I don't know how to start. I don't have pictures to post up. Neither do I know what to post about. :| I'm hungry, I wanna get this over and done with and then find some food. .___.

I really need to lose weight. I ate 2 plates of chicken rice for the first break. Rice crispies and that ham cheese thing at Starbucks. Everything I ate today was simply fattening.

I feel weird. I can't believe I just studied for my Math test. I can't believe I actually bothered to revise and understand. Wait, there's more. I'm beginning to read, like finally. Thanks to book reports. I swear, I feel like a total freak naturally adapting to this "new" lifestyle of mine.

I was finding pictures to post on my blog but to no avail. I browsed through the pictures we had together before and there, memories hit me again.

You know, honestly, looking back I realize I've been a bitch and really selfish to you before. I know my mistakes and I just wanna be friends again. I can hardly understand why you can't give me at least one chance to explain myself and sincerely apologize to you. Everytime I see you walk by, I really want to show you how sorry I am. But I know, you'll just ignore and walk away. It'll be a humiliation to both you and me then. Even though how much I wanna smile at you, I can't bring myself to. Neither can I look you in the eye. No words can express how much I miss you but I just keep it in and wait for you to cool down. I guess this is still affecting me because I loved you a lot before and yes, I still do. I could wish a thousand times that our friendship could be fixed again.

I guess, I'm going for netball tomorrow. Or maybe, half-half. We'll see how life goes.

love,

JJ.

its time to realize.

hey you, yes you.

have you realized I've not been speaking to you?

if you don't realize it, then I'm purposely doing it.

you know why?

cause you've changed.

even since you got into a relationship,

its like, you're a total different person.

I'm not the only one who says so.

you've became a bitch and a bully.

and you think very highly of yourself.

but just so you know,

everyone is at the same standard.

nobody's bad nor excellent.

although you've apologized,

I don't think it was sincere.

cause right after, you walked away without her

without asking her if she wanted to follow.

if you're not sorry, then don't say sorry.

don't waste your breath, don't waste people's time.

if you don't want to lose any of your friends,

change back to who you are before.

if not, don't cry when you start getting lonely.

because, you can't turn back time.

choose your own path.

--

it takes time for you to realize how much I think bout you every day.

you are the oneeee.

JJ ♥ CLARISSA LOW SHI YING! (: (:

we once hated each other that we could kill each other. but look? now, we're BEST FRIENDS. :D nono, best friends isn't as important as SISTERS! (: HAHAA! this is for you. you only! (: whenever I'm upset or disappointed, I know you're there for me. and I'll always be here for you if you need me too! I'll be your listening ear, your shoulder to cry on and your little teddy bear so that you can hug me! though, we'll never be together forever, our hearts will be. (: AWESOME & SEXY FTW :D :D