not anymore.

"Two or more people who share everything with one another, knowing they can be trusted. People who would, if needed, take a bullet for their friend(s). Two or more people who, through all the new friends, new hobbies, new jobs, rough times, and high school, are always there for eachother, no matter how busy they are. A best friend is someone who can make you feel better no matter what."

I thought I was just pmsing.
turns out, I'm not the one.
you said, I don't know anyone of your friends.
but when I saw the photos, I knew like, 95% of them.
and yet neither of you who apparently "loves" me,
had the initiative to ask if I could go or invite me.
here I thought, I was just being self-centred.
but I guess, I now know how much I mean to you.
no matter what outing I go for, I still invite you.
I get the permission to.
the reason is simple.
cause you are my best friend.
and to think I'm your best friend too.
so I guess you don't know the meaning of a true best friend.
its not someone who takes you out for fun only.
but you know what.
I've given up.
you can erase me from everywhere.
cause I had enough.
I don't need a best friend if this is how I'm treated.
I feel like garbage.
but whatever.
this is life. I have to face it.
don't tell me I'm your best friend when I'm actually not.

don't fucking tell me you love me when you fucking don't.
ALL OF YOU.

love,
JJ.