I have the sudden urge to start blogging again. But I don't know how to start. I don't have pictures to post up. Neither do I know what to post about. :| I'm hungry, I wanna get this over and done with and then find some food. .___.
I really need to lose weight. I ate 2 plates of chicken rice for the first break. Rice crispies and that ham cheese thing at Starbucks. Everything I ate today was simply fattening.
I feel weird. I can't believe I just studied for my Math test. I can't believe I actually bothered to revise and understand. Wait, there's more. I'm beginning to read, like finally. Thanks to book reports. I swear, I feel like a total freak naturally adapting to this "new" lifestyle of mine.
I was finding pictures to post on my blog but to no avail. I browsed through the pictures we had together before and there, memories hit me again.
You know, honestly, looking back I realize I've been a bitch and really selfish to you before. I know my mistakes and I just wanna be friends again. I can hardly understand why you can't give me at least one chance to explain myself and sincerely apologize to you. Everytime I see you walk by, I really want to show you how sorry I am. But I know, you'll just ignore and walk away. It'll be a humiliation to both you and me then. Even though how much I wanna smile at you, I can't bring myself to. Neither can I look you in the eye. No words can express how much I miss you but I just keep it in and wait for you to cool down. I guess this is still affecting me because I loved you a lot before and yes, I still do. I could wish a thousand times that our friendship could be fixed again.
I guess, I'm going for netball tomorrow. Or maybe, half-half. We'll see how life goes.
love,
JJ.
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