OMG WHAT A LONG DAY.

okay, actually it isn't that bad.

I had class till 5-ish.

and dance started at 530.

it was fun. kinda.

but Sam isn't teaching us anymore. ):

oh wells.

new experience, I guess.

Alicia and Belle's with me! Yayness.

oh so I ended at 7ish.

and babe waited for me.

I love you so freaking much. (:

he bought me food too.

ughhhh. sucha sweetiepie.

anyway, yeah. I don't think I'd be able to laugh tomorrow.

we did 100 crunches and I'm doing probably 150 more later.

if I have the time.

yeah.

oh my god, it finally stopped raining after like, two days of endless rain.

THANK YOU LORD.

Day 2 - your first love.

ALKM. I still remember you. and ofcourse, clearly what you did to me. it was really heartbreaking and everything cuz you were my first. but I guess it's okay as we were still young and immature. I'm glad you still treat me as your little sister everything we've had together. thank you so much. although I know you might not see this, I just wanna thank you. thank you for taking care of me and loving me. also, thank you for crushing me into pieces and making me stronger. (:

Day 1 - introduce myself.

this is me, Steffi Natalie Joey Tan.

some people know me as, "SNJT, Jo, Fifi, Meffi, lil' one" and to my noobs, "nooblet"

I love my family, babyboy, 3 other most favourite boys and my closest friends.

I'm a dancer, drummer and semi-netballer.

I can't live my life without music.

I love taking pictures. they come as memories.

I love stars cuz they're pretty.

my favourite flowers - roses and dandelions.

I love puppies and rabbits. anything adorable.

except cats and hamsters.

I hate the sight of insects.

I detest balloons, clowns, copycats, liars and frogs.

bring any of them near me, I swear I'll cut your face up into gazillion pieces.

I MEAN IT.

I'm scared of thunder, yes I am. they're creepy.

I like looking at pretty boys.

my boyfriend's one of 'em.

I'm the only child.

but I have a few god-siblings.

I have faith in God.

I love the colour purple and pink.

I like being friendly to people (: that some people think I'm a flirt.

oh, I'm really simple.

love me? I love you double the amount. (:

hate me? leave me alone, I'll leave you alone.

I'll just take it as you don't understand me at all.

lastly, I wanna lay on a field, filled with dandelions. not in the hot sun, but in a cold windy day.

it's just a fantasy.

Tonight will be the night that I'll fall for you over again.

Had so much nice and sweet bonding with my baby today.
Hehe.
Thank god we're working this out.
And we spent our night doing what we use to do.
I love you.

Going CNY shopping with him tomorrow!
I can't go with mom cuz she's hella busy. ):
And defi cant go with dad cuz he'll be unwilling to pay and he wouldnt be able to decide what's nice and what's not.
Hohoho.

Cca fair today.
Joined DANCE! (:
Got Alicia, Isabel, Sha Lin and Sha May in dance with me!
Omg there's girl's basketball now. :/
Ksheng, idk, Jas, Luca, Gav, TY kept persuading me to join.
Thanks but no thanks!
I managed to persuade baby back into basketball instead!
Hehehe.
Luca and Gav were mean to me today. ):

I WILL DO IT.

Day 1 - introduce yourself.

Day 2 - your first love.

Day 3 - your parents.

Day 4 - what you ate today.

Day 5 - your definition of love.

Day 6 - your day.

Day 7 - your best friend.

Day 8 - A moment.

Day 9 - your beliefs.

Day 10 - what you wore today.

Day 11 - your siblings.

Day 12 - what's in your bag.

Day 13 - this week.

Day 14 - what you wore today.

Day 15 - your dreams.

Day 16 - your first kiss.

Day 17 - your favourite memory.

Day 18 - your favourite birthday.

Day 19 - something you regret.

Day 20 - this month.

Day 21 - another moment.

Day 22 - something that upsets you.

Day 23 - something that makes you feel better.

Day 24 - something that makes you cry.

Day 25 - a first.

Day 26 - your fears.

Day 27 - your favourite place.

Day 28 - something that you miss.

Day 29 - your aspirations.

Day 30 - one last moment.

so much for saying hi. hohoho.

Luca whacked me with his towel/shirt today.

owwww.

):

ITS RAINING.

Laugh your heart out

Dance in the rain

Cherish the moment

Ignore the pain

Live, Laugh, Love

Forgive & Forget

Life's too short to be

living in regrets

got that off Eszter's Facebook. totally made so much sense.

it's been raining the entire day today.

it's annoying cuz the weather's putting me to sleep.

omg, I seriously can't wait for dance to begin again.

1) motivation to slim down.

2) I haven't been dancing since forever, and I miss it.

3) Alicia, Isabel, Rebecca are joining me, I think! hopefully.

hohoho.

I'm so devastated.

I've been so busy and tired that I don't have the time to catch up with 90210.

UGHHHH.

):

oh my gosh, you're sucha suck up.

hurhurhur.

I'M REALLY TIRED OF ALWAYS SEEING YOUR FACE. GO AWAY, LEAVE ME ALONE.

turn on my mayday mode.

hi.

I just got back from school like, 20mins or so ago.

yes, I ended at 430 today. how lucky right.

-.-

went for Sushi tei with my noobs.

and went to AOR to change my class to friday, 330.

on top of that, I'm thinking of joining outside hiphop at like, 530.

yeah. busy fridays. which is good. keep me active, slim me down!

so it's 6 going 7,

and my eyes are like half opened already.

but I still have my History, English all undone.

FGHJKL.

maybe I'll do a bit of English and continue tomorrow.

maybe, maybe.

OH WHAT THE HECK.

where are all the ants coming from man.

go away, I don't need you anywhere near me. ANTS SUCKS.

omg, I seriously need to get CNY clothes, new school shoes and school bag.

I literally wore my hot pink Nikes today.

just so, to see who'd catch me.

hoho, Mr Png did.

oh wells.

6.

6, baby. we've made it through together for half a year.

whenever you're not around, I feel like something's missing.

you're the one, who can turn my life into a beautiful fairytale or crush me into pieces that I may never crawl back up again.

we've been through the toughest time together where we almost lost each other. where our hearts were both crushed to ends.

yet, we still held on tight to each other, promising with pinkys that we'll never let go, that we'll love each other till the end.

I don't know how much you love me, but I know myself, that I love you so much that words can't express.

I've never felt this way before for any other guy. It's mad, I know. I'm mad.

at times, I might be the worse girlfriend you have ever gotten.

especially after that huge quarrel we had, it might seem that I have lost trust in you.

but it's because I care, it's because I'm scared I might lose you.

I don't want to have another fight where we both have our eyes filled with tears or hurtful words which I said.

I really don't wish to have you leaving me because of some other girl or because you've stopped loving me.

and worse of all, I don't ever want you to lie to me.

I want to be that girl you can tell anything to. that girl which you'd spend your forever with. that girl which you'd never wanna hurt. just, that girl you're looking for.

I love you, darling.

I hope our love will have no end.

thank you for being so patient and showering me with so much love.

I really wonder, what am I without you.

my life.

I literally spent my weekend with her, lil' Kayla and family.

it was fun, I guess.

did my work till 1am, went for church the next morning, breakfast, Parkway, got Koi, ECP Carl's Jr., then homed.

Kayla's soooo cute. :}

anyway, omg, yknow what? I bought Koi from her! OMG, unbelievable. yuck. :/

I gave school a miss today cuz I wasn't feeling perfectly well to attend.

but then I regretted, I should have gone.

1) it's boring at home.

2) it's 6. I wanna see him, especially on our 6!!!

no, seriously, I rather be getting shit in school doing productive stuff than staying home, just, spacing out and wasting my day.

oh wells. I guess I'll read my History notes.

I gotta do.

1. Lose weight.
2. Go for CNY shopping.
3. Look up for Fridays dance class.
4. Change drums class to Wednesdays.

I LIKE. (Y)

and and and, new piercing. WHERE SHOULD I GET IT!?

...

I think she still likes you.

(.........)

Am I?

),:

TGIF.

OMG, Charles Lee made me laugh till I teared in a-math today. hillllllarious.

Ben and IDK conferenced with me 15mins ago when they're like, having their dinner beside each other. (y) LOL. yeah, and IDK was like, "Ben, dyou want my egg? I can't finish it". WHAT THE. DUDE YOU GUYS ARE BESIDE EACH OTHER. so yeah, before that, I shouted at this stupid old cab driver. he was literally shouting at me, complaining we were noisy and stuff, so I basically shouted back. couldn't take it. whatever.

I'm addicted to 90210 cuz I'm waiting for ML to show uppppp, omg.

ACW & ML. (hearts)

OMG.

my stalker mode just turned on. :3

baby, please don't kill me.

I CRAVE FOR CHEESEFRIES.

did I not tell you about what my bestfriend got me as a birthday gift? IT WAS SOMETHING UNEXPECTED! (: but I love it. anyways, it's a red wristband with BESTIE on it. awwww, love you. :}

anyways, first week of school. ugh, literally draining my energy. I get home and I'm dead tired. bummer. thank God it's friday tomorrow! FINALLY! oh, today, I got freaking annoyed with you. usually, I wouldn't really care. I just ignore your flaws. but this time, you seriously pushed against my limits.

I still can't get over the fact my birthday was such an amazing one! really. the best. I've said it before. but it's the truth. wahahhaa.

OMG, seriously, does anyone in this world know the cute dude's name in my Tumblr?!

6months, upcoming! ^^

THE BEST. I swear.

omg, I'm suppose to be somewhat turning in right now.

but because I had the best birthday year everrr, I'm gonna be a sweetie pie and share it with everyone!

on saturday, we went over to the club. my noobs went. we pool-ed, basketball-ed, beach-ed, semi swam and karaoked. it was okay. after that, we met mom at Taka for Korean BBQ. dinner was a blast!!!! I loved it. ^^ darling and bestey kept throwing me food. awww, sah sweet. (: HAHA. I loved dinner the most.

then on sunday, went out with Desiree and had dinner with godparents, parents, darling and Nikhil in the evening. it was a nice day too!

and not forgetting today. I received at least 170^ wishes!!! thank you everyone! school was tiring cuz I ended at 510. ): ON MY BIRTHDAY. could have given me a break. ): oh wells. so yeah. OH, I LOVE ALL MY PRESENTS. :D I LOVE LOVE LOVE.

I swear, it's the best birthday I've everrrrr had. :} gifts, wishes, celebrations, hugs and kisses were all amazing! and I managed to spend it with my dearests. LOVE EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU. (hearts)

J, I read your blog.

THANK YOU LORD FOR A GOOD START FOR 2011.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF!

damn right, I'm 15.

I had a splendid weekend!

I realize you don't exactly tell me everything, oh wells.

baby, be honest is this what you wanted?

I really can't choose who to believe. either you, or her. I know you wouldn't do sucha thing like that. cuz you love me. me, only. ain't I right? but on the other hand, it sounded a lot like you. really. I felt so heartbrokened, crushed, torn apart, cheated, insecure and fucked. I literally wanted to stab myself, you and her. EVERYONE. it made me feel like, I'm not good enough. am I really nothing? am I? I don't wanna be nothing to you. no, I don't. I wanna be someone you truly love from the bottom of your heart and with all your heart. I don't want to be cheated again. I don't wanna visit the past again. cuz all of them sucked. so please don't do what they did to me; break me apart. please? you were the one who taught me how to love again. don't be the one who teach me how to hate. I'm trying to forget this hard and fast and able to trust you wholeheartedly again. I don't like this, in fact, I freaking hate it. okay. I love you, and I don't want what we have to be gone just like that. we still have a lot more to go through and see together. you're the only one I trusted my heart with, please don't break it. it's fragile.

so darling, be honest, am I really not good enough? hmm?

I'm on my way home!

Just left Justina's place.
Brought teh tarik for Godpa as promised!
Ain't I a sweetheart?! Jokes.
Omgz. J and I were like hamsters who stalk and eavesdrop.
Hmmmmm.
We are the hamsters, my friends!
Hehe. :}

School tomorrow, bummer!
That's why I'm blogging thru my phone.
We're just going back to get our timetable and stuffs. :/
Sucha waste of time. Oh wells.
And all of us aren't in the same class!
),:
I liked my previous class. Kinda.
We'll see how everything goes.

Oh ya! We saw this girl who looks exactly like J.
Okay not exactly. But 80%!
it's mad. Insanity I say.
Her name is Natalie something.
Aren't we stalkers hmm.

Oh! I did my nails at fareast with Carey.
$35. Thinking it was $4. Scamzzzz!!
I practically romed around town with her and I was the one leading the way.
Omg proud of myself ttm.
Hehe. :}

Yawnnnnnz.

OMG IT'S HERE!

:D :D :D,

my first post ever with my MACBOOK AIR!!!!!!

oh my god, I love itttt.

it's so freaking tiny, but the best part of it, ITS LIGHT.

sank you mummy!!!!!

(L)

oh, another good news. (:

Jie, I know how much you got for your Os.

well done. :}

on the other hand,

I received a call from mom over at the party just now.

it was about godpa in hospital.

I hope he's alright and everything.

(L)

BBQ PARTY WAS A SUCCESS. I'MMA BLOG ABOUT IT LATER. ^^

oh.

3. Your favourite television programme.

How I Met Your Mother. ^^

CHALLENGE ACCEPTED.

this is gonna be fun. ;)

1am, why am I still awake?

had dinner with mom, love and aunty Delia. it was pretty good, I must say (y). oh uhm, before that, we went over to Paragon to hunt for my birthday present. I saw this skirt I liked, but babe said it was stupid to be receiving just a skirt for a birthday gift. kinda true. so yeah. MOM'S GETTING ME A MAC BOOK PRO INSTEAD. (Y)(Y)(Y). I'll be replacing it with my old desktop which I would be giving away. I haven't seen it yet :/, but I think it's a pretty good deal. I'm still keeping my VAIO tho, that mean's I'm gonna be both a PC user and a MAC user. WHEEEE HARDCORE.

anyways, didn't I not comment on my hair? well, fringe. but oh, I love it. (: it's straight, but it's curling in towards my face. LIKE. thank you uncle Vincent!!!! like, for once, I'm actually satisfied with my fringe. pssst, it only happens in a life time. and I think I'll be sticking to this hairstyle for the time being. :}

2. Talk about your piercings or tattoos, if you have any.

my naval piercing. I actually love it and don't regret at all. :}

9 more days.

1. Your middle name, and how you feel about it.

Joey. I like it, it's short but kinda meaningful. (:

I practically chilled out at home today. all I really did was pack my room, which is only 1/3 done, and then surfed the net. Skype-ing with love and Ed right now! but I'm going to bed like, pretty soon. so yeah. this staying up late, chatting with friends kinda reminds me of the past. oh wells.

I hate this, really. my hair's always amazing at wrong times. Fghjkl.

I'll be fifteen soon. and it's gonna be the best party my friends have ever attended in their entire life. suck it.

this is to the person I truly love,

Dear you,

5 months, on our journey to the 6th. you're the longest I've ever lasted, the best among the rest and definitely the one I truly love the most. I'm seriously impressed with how patient you are with me and how you can tolerate my madness. we've gone thru thick and thin whilst holding on to each other and I'm expressing everything out here cuz I'm satisfied enough to show the world what brilliant and lovely boy I have.

it's amazing how you'd go all out just to be with me or make me smile. Eg 1, New Year's Eve. despite your parents' threats, you still took the risk. Eg 2, when I had a hard time in ACS and I was so close into transferring, you promised you'd talk to your parents just to be with me even though you clearly knew that they didn't like any other international schools.

You'd always be there to catch me when I fall. always the one who will hug me tight, telling me "I'm here, everything's gonna be alright". always the one who would risk dirtying your plain white tees just to wipe away my tears cuz you don't ever wanna see me cry. always the one who would stay up late just w8ing for me to knock off to dream land.

no matter how many crazy or tiny arguments we've had, it'll never last more than just a day. and you'd always make it as perfect as before.

I really wanna thank you for buying so many expensive gifts for me. from T&C necklace, to fluffed up teddy bear, to juicy hoodie, to drum sticks and the sexiest guitar EVER. I wanna thank you for changing my life, for bringing so much happiness in my life that I've never ever had, for always being there and taking care of me, for risking so much crazy shits for me and lastly for being the bestest boyfriend anyone could ever had. you're like a dream boy for every girl, really.

I just wanna say, no matter how crazy you may get, how jealous you can get and all other crazy things about you added up together, thank you for everything, I will never let go darling and, from the bottom of my heart, I love you more than anyone can ever imagine.

I love you, Geoffrey. (:

with lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots of love,

Steffi Natalie Joey Tan.

IMMA HAPPY KID. (:

so yesterday, we watched 'The Tourist'. it was pretty okay. at the start of the movie, it was kinda boring and then it got complicated. well, that's to me. but its the kind of movie which I wouldn't mind watching again. (:

and for today, I literally spent 2hours + doing my hair. it's slightly shorter than before and I coloured it again. accompanied mom to pay for school fees, get the booklist and made noise about my ezlink card which I haven't received for approximately 6months. yep, and then some political drama within them began which mom and I got caught in. yeah, whatever. oh, had lunch at Crystal Jade and went to the pet shop!!! :}

so, I met love, Edward and Carey over at PS. just roamed around aimlessly until someone thought of something to do. we ended up walking all the way to Cine, to play pool. I didn't really play cuz I wasn't exactly comfortable with the environment there. yeah. oh, before we left the pool place, they gave me a sweet surprise. the guitar, Edward was carrying the entire time, which I thought was his, ended up to be my birthday gift from my dearest lovely boy. ♥ OH, HE BOUGHT ME FLIP-FLOPS AND DRUM STICKS TOOWOO. I love you tons boy. (: so we walked to T.G.I.Fridays to chill out. I bought an anklet for myself too! ♥. from there, we all left cuz it was pretty much getting late. oh wells, at least I had some time with 'em. (:

UGH. I have to wake up at 8.30 tomorrow, gonna be cycling at ECP. I seriously dread waking up this early, and knowing that I would be able to sleep a few more hours, annoys the hell outta me. but it's okay, maybe, morning cycle might help with the burning of fats.

I was hoping to get at least one song done on guitar by tonight. but no, I realized I forgot every single thing taught the moment I held the guitar. so I ended up learning off the web. but this time, I wrote it down! HA-HA. I tried Bleed(Hot Chelle Rae) to Lips of an Angel to Chasing cars to Beautiful Soul. but I still can't play a single song. they were either too complicating, or they had too many same chords in one bar. so yeah, as anyone ever expected, I gave up. I ended up playing nursery rhymes for mom and Creamie to sleep.

okay, pretty wordy post. just some pictures and I'm off!

I'M ON DOUBLE PEDDLES. :}

DAMN RIGHTTTTT, I'M ON DOUBLE PEDDLES WHEEEEE. :}

oh, so now its 2AM close to 3. and I have to get up at 12 (the latest) to catch a movie in town with I really don't know who's going. yep, I don't. I might just fall asleep in the theatre. so anywayyyy, I can't get to sleep. ): why?

5 more days - 2V + 2W class BBQ. (can't w8 ^^)

8 more days - school begins. (I haven't even gotten books yetttt. oh wells. ACS is messed up.)

12 more days - my life of being 15 begins.

☮

A photo of...

1. Your facebook profile photo.

2. A photo of you and someone you love.

3. A photo that makes you happy.

4. A photo of the last place you went on holiday.

5. A photo of you.

6. A photo that makes you laugh.

7. A photo of someone you love.

8. A photo of your favourite band/musicians.

9. A photo of your family.

10. A photo of you as a baby.

11. A photo of your favourite film(s).

12. A photo of you.

13. A photo of your best friend(s).

14. A photo of one of your favourite family members.

15. A photo of yourself a year ago.

16. A photo of you at the last party you went to.

17. A drunk photo of you.

(uhhmm, I wasn't exactly drunk, but like.. tipsy?)

18. A photo of one of your classes.

19. A photo of you on a school trip.

(can't find)

20. A photo of something you enjoy doing.

21. A photo of you standing up.

22. A photo of your town.

(Skip, I don't have this one.)

23. A photo of your friend as a baby.

(hehehe, miss him)

24. A photo of you that your hair looks nice in.

25. A photo of a night you loved.

26. A photo of your favourite weekend.

27. A photo of last summer.

28. A photo of what you ate today.

(don't have a picture)

29. A photo of someone you find attractive.

30. A photo of you when you were happy.

I think, if I remembered it right, this thing took me approximately 5 hours or so. had to search all over for the right photo. and half the time, my laptop was PMS-ing on me. ugh, glad it was over. ciao!

I'm.. back here.

it's 2011, I'm gonna start blogging over here again. I had a hard time thinking if I should switch over to Xanga, LJ or Wordpress. then I got through it, Blogger's the simplest. (: but then again, you can't entirely trust me for always updating here. but yeah, whatever. I'll just try to keep it updated whenever I can.

okay, so today, I went over to ♥'s place at 2+, managed to get dad to send me over. we played one round of Monopoly. all of us practically combined our houses and cash against Nikhil, but we still lost in the end tho. =/ oh wells. Oh yes, we watched Harry Potter. totally long movie. then I went home. ):

I must admit, it wasn't a brilliant day. but it was good just having to spend some time with 'em. especially you, ♥. (:

oh, a few new year resolutions to start with:

• do better at school.
• be nice to everyone. practically, make peace.
• stop getting affected but what people say.
• be a better friend, girl friend, daughter.
• lose weight, work out.
• be happier. :D :D

1. Your facebook profile picture.

2. A photo of you and someone you love.

3. A photo that makes you happy.

4. A photo of the last place you went on holiday.

5. A photo of you.

6. A photo that makes you laugh.

7. A photo of someone you love.

8. A photo of your favourite band/musician.

9. A photo of your family.

10. A photo of you as a baby.

11. A photo of your favourite film(s).

12. A photo of you.

13. A photo of your best friend(s).

14. A photo of one of your favourite family members.

15. A photo of yourself a year ago.

16. A photo of you at the last party you went to.

17. A drunk photo of you.

18. A photo of one of your classes.

19. A photo of you on a school trip.

20. A photo of something you enjoy doing.

21. A photo of you standing up.

22. A photo of your town.

23. A photo of your friend as a baby.

24. A photo of you that your hair looks nice in.

25. A photo of a night you loved.

26. A photo of your favourite weekend.

27. A photo of last summer.

28. A photo of what you ate today.

29. A photo of someone you find attractive.

30. A photo of you when you were happy.

I got this off jie's blog, so yeah, I'll probably start with it.. tomorrow! :}

hey you, I see life's been pretty tough on you. I really don't wanna ask and bother you like as if I HAVE TO KNOW that kinda thing. but yeah, I just want you to know, I'm here for you (: don't bottle up your feelings k? if you need a hug, call me out. (: if you need someone to text, yknow my digits. need someone to talk to, I'll listen. (: loveyou.