baby, be honest is this what you wanted?

I really can't choose who to believe. either you, or her. I know you wouldn't do sucha thing like that. cuz you love me. me, only. ain't I right? but on the other hand, it sounded a lot like you. really. I felt so heartbrokened, crushed, torn apart, cheated, insecure and fucked. I literally wanted to stab myself, you and her. EVERYONE. it made me feel like, I'm not good enough. am I really nothing? am I? I don't wanna be nothing to you. no, I don't. I wanna be someone you truly love from the bottom of your heart and with all your heart. I don't want to be cheated again. I don't wanna visit the past again. cuz all of them sucked. so please don't do what they did to me; break me apart. please? you were the one who taught me how to love again. don't be the one who teach me how to hate. I'm trying to forget this hard and fast and able to trust you wholeheartedly again. I don't like this, in fact, I freaking hate it. okay. I love you, and I don't want what we have to be gone just like that. we still have a lot more to go through and see together. you're the only one I trusted my heart with, please don't break it. it's fragile.

so darling, be honest, am I really not good enough? hmm?