JOSH ZUCKERMAN.

SUMMER'S UP!

I've been smelling unusually nice the past 2 days. and I really like the smell tooo. :O

anyways, SUMMER VACATION BEGINS NEXT FRIDAY. ^^ and then NEWYORK on Tuesday! zomggggg, I'm so damn psyched about it!!!!

when I come back from my awesome holiday, I'm gonna ...

• work out so damn much till I get my abs again. ^^
• meet up with my -Mythology- people.
• meet up with my elementary school friends.
• hit the beach like almost once a week.
• swim almost every week.
• go USS once more.
• help my mom out at the office like, at least twice.
• GROW TALLERRR!

yeap, that's my plan. pretty much a lot of things to do, but I think I can achieve it. (:

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YOU HAVE NEVER TOLD ME ANYTHING SINCE THE BEGINNING ANYWAYS.

I LOST WEIGHT. BUT I STILL HAVE A BELLY ):

sigh.):

You can never look at him the same way as before anymore can't you? -.-

BLOWWWWW.

I'm having seaweed shakerfries :}

Tuesday has finally ended! whoopwhoopwheeeee. kekekeke. school was okay, I just felt really tired and unwell so I went to visit the nurse during my Chem periods. I've been having serious head spins since Mother's Day. so okay, the nurse overdosed me with 7 different kinds of medicine. badass huh? when I woke up, I seriously needed to puke.

something really weird happened today. well, it happened since.. last friday. S, CL, CK, NK started talking to me again. whereas for L, she smiled and gave me a light pat on my head. everything seems to be going backwards today though, it seems really nice to not have the bad atmosphere for once. (:

dear curls, you're fading ): please don't fade so quickly. ):

dear you, get well sooooooon. (:

God heard me, he answered my prayers.

BLOGGER OR NOT?

I realize Blogger's pretty useless. should I shift? I probably wouldn't. almost all of my memories are from this blog.

I was looking through my posts and I realize I've changed quite a bit. attitude, looks, style...

2008.

2009.

2010

2011

okay, so, NZ or not?

IT'S NOT EASY TO FORGIVE.

but God, give me the strength to.

(:

Happy Mother's Day to all my Mumsies.

1) my beloved birth mother.

2) my god mother.

3) my "god mother".

4) piple godmother.

5) my grandmother.

6) my god grandmother.

7) my fake mothers - Rafael, Denise, Nikole Tan.

8) Mama Idenburg.

love,

your daughter/god daughter/grand daughter.

JOEY.

new hairstyle.

new attitude.

new me.

just joeylicious.

Haven't posted ever since I came back from camp.

life's been pretty rollarcoaster-ish.

sometimes, I'd be at the peak, and sometimes I'd be nowhere on my own.

but well, to sum up, that's life.

so I kinda can't wait for NY trip.

hope its gonna be a blast!

but I know, definitely, it won't be as good as Melbourne.

FY. \m/

I miss my sexy Australians.

):

at 11, close to midnight last night,

Ben Chua texted me at the most random time.

but it was something kewt.

^^

O(h) B(ull) S(hit)

back from suffering a torturous 5 day bullshit.

well, honestly it wasn't exactly that bad.

having badass night outs, kayaking and watching bboy battles were kinda cool.

it kinda made my camp a blast!

unfortunately, the food were absolutely disgusting and how strict it was.

kinda bonded closer to some people and like met new people.

which was kinda nice.

I somewhat miss it, altho it wasn't perfect.

but yeah.

APRIL FOOLS.

April is seriously fooling around with me. I'm beginning to detest this month. everything was back to normal when something even worse happened today. must everything hit me at one go like this? seriously?

my heart is shattered and all I have in mind is my baby, Creamie. she's gone, no longer in earth. she's farfar away. but always close to my heart. having nothing to hold in my arms, sucks. cuz usually, I'd be holding you in my arms.. nobody's gonna spend the night with me anymore and it's definitely awfully weird to only have Pippin coming up to me when I return home from where ever I was. Creamie, I miss you... there is nothing I want now than you back but that can never happen. you'll be remembered by all of us. I love you.

love, me.

hello april.

so we're here again, with a new month. a very ugly way to start a month. but I know it'll get better. I know we'll fix it and move on.

had dinner yesterday last night with Appleboxers. it was nice. Maryann made me thought about that amazing day where all of us headed to Universals. made me wanna do it again. but I'd probably not because I'm saving up for my US trip during the Sumz Vacation. I kinda look forward to that. oh, we constantly have the discussion about holding hands = dating? dating = together? friends with benefits? fling? and whatsoever.

G's turning 17 in 6 days. and next year, he'll be celebrating his 18th while I celebrate my 16th. time time time, this is scaring me... time is taking off too quickly. I still wanna slowly enjoy life. I don't wanna close my eyes and someday, waking up to my alarm which says time for work. but then again, it's part of life. nothing stays forever...

I really miss 2009. where all of us were in the same class, perhaps throwing paper balls at each other, teasing and annoying teachers on their worst days, hanging around the canteen just laughing our butts off. yeah, I miss that. I wish this house system never existed.

oh and school food, yeah, if it continues to stay disgusting, I guess I wouldn't have to work out!

YOU HAVE STOLEN MY HEART.

okay, so right now I don't exactly know what is going on between us.

all I know is that I love you.

like, a lot.

MEFFI ON THE LOOSE.

past few days, I'm so darn addicted to 90210 and I'm soooo in love with Matt Lanter (Liam)! he's just too adorable. in 90210, he's like, a dream boy! well, my kinda. :P he's wild, naughty, adorable, cool, surfer, racer, intelligent, charming. I mean, my G's really pretty tooooo (:

#100factsaboutme.

1. I love Geoffrey Idenburg.

2. I love my family.

3. my first name's Joey.

4. I love cheerleading.

5. I'm a dancer.

6. I play the drums.

7. I'm a psycho at times, not literally, but just overly crazy.

8. my favorite color's purple.

9. I don't actually mind pink either.

10. I HATE SINGAPORE.

11. I love my bestieeeee.

12. I love my hangout peeps.

13. I'm addicted to 90210.

14. I hate clowns and balloons.

15. AND FROGS.

16. I'm afraid of the thunderstorm.

17. 17's my favourite number.

18. I wanna be pretty, slimmer and taller.

19. I ♥ Matt Lanter. ^^ (: (: (: (: (:

20. Alex Watson toooooo.

21. Jesse Mccartney!

22. and Orlando Bloooooom.

23. I can't stand alcoholics.

24. and people who try to be like me.

25. I wanna be as hot as Britney Spears as she was in the younger days.

26. I hate having cramps.

27. I detest Naomi and her family in 90210.

28. Msn is outdated.

29. so is Facebook, well kinda.

30. I have amazing parents.

31. I have a cute, charming, sweet boyfriend.

32. I love my dogs. especially Pippin.

33. I hate the fact that I've drifted away from my elementary school friends.

34. I miss Melbourne. ):

35. I love Melbourne!

36. I miss my friends there.

37. I'm fat.

38. I'm not pretty.

39. I watch HIMYM.

40. and I love Barney Stinson (:

41. I watch Glee too (getting boring though).

42. I hate the fact that time past so quickly.

43. I don't wanna grow up.

44. I love my godfamily.

45. I love animals.

46. I like stayovers.

47. I enjoy cam-whoring.

48. I'm impatient.

49. I don't like drifting apart.

50. I love chocolates.

51. I EXTREMELY LOVE BEN&JERRY'S. ^^

52. I love God (:

53. my favourite band's All Time Low.

54. and Mayday Parade.

55. Boys Like Girls too (:

56. I can't stand my school.

57. I feel like I don't know you sometimes...

58. I wanna last long (:

59. I have a Tumblr.

60. some people in my school are really 2-faced.

61. I love experiment 626 ; Stitch. ^^

62. I enjoy midnight phone calls.

63. or midnight visits.

64. I miss you now.

65. I have a Tumblr.

66. I like basketballers. (:

67. I love extreme rollarcoaster rides.

68. I wanna visit Rome someday.

69. I wanna study in the US.

70. I need a new school bag.

71. and a new hp cover.

72. I can't stand technology sometimes.

73. I wanna get married in a castle.

74. I want 2 sons.

75. I'll name them Liam and Pierce (:

76. I like Halloween.

77. I love roses.

78. I can't stand the weather in SG.

79. I love Dandelions.

80. and Stars too.

81. I wanna lie down on a huge patch of grass with my love, just looking up at the stars.

82. or maybe slow dance along the waves at a beautiful beach.

83. I enjoy hugs from the back.

84. and kisses on foreheads.

85. and even sudden kisses.

86. I hate how I can't do something special.

87. or be good in my studies.

88. I hate hate HATE my voice.

89. I have sinus and I can't stand it.

90. I love Matt Lanter's voice. (:

91. I get jealous easily.

92. I enjoy being friendly.

93. I love batman (:

94. 2009 was sort of the best year.

95. I want an accent. (:

96. I like pretty dresses.

97. don't really love skirts.

98. I like smiling.

99. I hate fights.

100. I am who I am.

I'm finally back in school after one and a half week of short yet eventful break. now it's all back to the serious shit. I've kinda decided to mug this term onwards.

so, my break was good. especially on monday (21st). we had a group outing of noobs to USS and it was one hella of a blast!! I enjoyed it and I wanna go again. in total, we went on Mummy like 5 times, Jurassic park once, CYLON 4 and Human once. realized I capitalized Cylon? well, it wasn't a mistake. NO MISTAKES FOR CYLON. it was the best ride I've ever taken!! we all freaked out the first time we rode it but we went again and again and got addicted to it. gosh, I love it! I really loved this day, it was just awesome and nothing went wrong. exxxxcept for the fact that my top kept falling. -.-

yesterday was the first day of the term. nice way to start off a term, I guess. although I was literally falling asleep in almost every class but yeah, it goes the same for today too. I just have to catch up on more sleep. was suppose to get lunch after school with Gavin, Luca and gang cuz I only had sandwich and 2 icecreams and I was STARVING! school food sucks! anyway, I didn't go in the end. cuz Gavin decided to bring 2 other people idk who and I felt kinda awkward. so I stayed in school without any one accompanying me. I asked year4s basketballers to accompany me, but they left to eat lunch. so, in conclusion, I realize y4 and 6es enjoy ditching me and not getting me any food. ):

today's our 8th. (: although we didn't do anything much together, I'm still happy I saw you. (:

90210 now!

xoxo,

justjoeylicious.

Melbourne misses.

A

just got off skype call with Adam retardface. (: and Sean in the background being noisy playing the guitar. weeeeell, he's home now, getting his phone all charged up before he can call me again.

the short convo we had, was retarded, funny and something I should keep in memory.

Adam: when are you coming here again?

Me: I'm not sure. maybe never.

Adam: come during the June holidays.

Me: I wish I could, why not you come over?

Adam: I might. during the Dec. my friends are going to Thailand and maybe we could drop by Singapore.

Me: YES. OKAY.

Adam: so which city in Singapore dyou live in?

Me: just Singapore. it's just a small island.

Adam: you don't live in Jakarta or anything like that?

Me: that's Indonesia.

Adam: oh, oops! I got mixed up. anyway, you guys don't have a city?

Me: yeah, we do. like.. town? "downtown?"

Adam: oh, so how do we get to Singapore? do we have to take a boat there to your small island?

Me: HAHAHA. no, you don't.

Adam: so you guys have airports?

Me: HAHAHA! yes we do!

Adam: is it an international airport?

Me: no, its just airport! HAHA.

omg, he's so retarded. :} missing Melbourne.... wish we were there longer.

SPRING DANCE WAS SHORT AND SWEET. however, I felt last year's was better. this year's music was kinda crapped out. but yeah, it was still cool.

danced so much that my feet have been killed with humongous blisters.

DRESSES.

falling in love with the pink dressssssssssss.

I just miss how our group use to hang out almost everyday.

every single day, we'll have plans for the holidays. or the weekend.

G, Jas, Pravin, Idk, Simon, Ben, Jon, David, Jeremy, Lionel, Darren, Carey, Isabel, Jessica, Rebecca.

I miss it. really.

WHAT SHOULD I WEAR FOR SPRING DANCE?!

'the lab'? seriously?

what kind of theme is that?!

my life.

I'm back after taking a long break off blogging.

I've been pretty stressed out lately. trying to get my ass back on board.

so yeah. at least school holiday's are approaching in a week. (:

and Spring Dance is next friday! I'm just too overly excited and I can't wait!!!

^^

okay, so I've decided. I'm gonna start cheerleading in ACS.

high chance, it's not gonna work.

but it's worth the try.

stuff to do during the March short but relaxing break.

1. get my ears pierced. PROPERLY.
2. do some dress shopping. (it's spring, semi-summer, loads of pretty dresses out on stock)
3. get my hair highlighter with a mix of purple and brown. more of brown tho. and purple like the picture above.
4. STUDY.
5. workout a hell lot.
6. learn at least 1 song on guitar.

I haven't been resting this weekend. met up in town with Jazz and G. bestey couldn't make it in the end. we had like lotsa food - some weird chocolate drink, B&J's and then macs. we played pool and I saw a few familiar people over at Cine. we went on with neoprints. and our day just ended off like that. oh, we had Chem class in the morning and I had to wake up early to get my IC done.

whereas today, I had catechism. so another early day. gonna take a short power nap before I start off with homework and some workouts.

peace out.

DAMN.

SJI has cheerleading CCA.

now I'm dying to go there. uggggghhh.

what should I do?

I MISS YOU. BUT YOU CHANGED SO MUCH, I DON'T EVEN FEEL LIKE TALKING TO YOU. LIKE AS IF WE NEVER WERE YOUR FRIENDS.

and you don't even give a shit.

so proud of myself. :} I studied at least 4 hours today and I did make progress! I'm so tired now tho, gonna sleep soon altho school starts late tomorrow. long day againnnnnnn. but there's dance! wheeeee~

went out yesterday to S313 with G and Eddie. I TOOK PUBLIC TRANSPORT THERE! it wasn't exactly an eventful day, cuz we couldn't think of what to do and all the movie tickets were completely sold out. we ended up, bunking in at G's, all snuggled up in bed, watching a mindfucking movie, Inception.

I miss my australians. ):

I'M GETTING BETTER.

lately, I've been so cropped up, hot-headed and ignored everyone around me due to stress from all the assignments piled up from what I missed on Monday and Tuesday. but I guess now as the week has passed and thank god it's FINALLY weekends, I get a break. so I'm pretty alright now. I think drums helped out a little bit too which is good. (:

another amazing friday where I just chill out with my favourite trio. I swear, I'm really blessed to have these 3 (G, P, J) to talk to whenever I need to. ♥ I would really like to travel somewhere with you guys, just the 3 of you.

I'm feel so envious right now. like, I think I should quit Tumblr and never enter this site ever again. well, okay, maybe not. the truth is, Tumblr makes me wanna shop, shop for clothes. but trust me, in this kind of pretty shitty country, you will never be able to find such gorgeous stuff. really.

just yesterday, was 7. (: I'm over the moon biatches! WAHAHAA.

hi there. (:

I'm feeling sooooo much better right now.

not perfectly fit, but still much better.

omg, and I'm actually studying for my chem test chapter 2, which apparently is tomorrow.

and I actually get it!

I'm proud of myself. :}

bio test tomorrow too.

I really hope I'll do well again, so I can "double kill" my bio lecturer. :3

I'm so sad, I'm missing dance today. ):

oh wells...

I'm like, listening to Michael Buble's songs right now.

damn devastated please.

his show ticket's are completely sold out. ):

his voice~~~

OMG.

):

someone be a sweetie to sell me their MB's please!?

PLEASE!!!

ill.

my brain isn't working at all.

I've been trying to work since, 2pm.

and I'm not making progress.

I tried reading history, none has been absorbed.

I tried doing my chinese, none either, or it was too difficult, or Laoshi gave us higher chinese worksheet by accident.

I don't know, but every second I feel like falling asleep.

so here I am now, gonna go nap or awhile.

really hoping I'll be able to get some shit after I wake up.

SMELLY PEOPLE ON SKYPE!

yeah, Jas and I. :} hehehe!

anyways, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DARLING BROTHER, JERRY BOY! jie loves you no matter how retarded and silly you are! ♥

I had one hella cool and awesome evening everrr with my 3 favourite boys yesterday. ♥ it was those kind of evenings you wished it'll never have an ending. just the 4 of us together warms me up a little inside.

meeting my darling boy, G, later on for a date! ♥

I don't like sitting with you..

cuz you keep swearing.

and it's super embarrassing.

MB.

I WANNA SEE YOU LIVE.

Dear Valentine.

my first ever Valentines Day celebrated with a partner. yes, first. (: G, honoured? anyways, G baked me cupcakes and they were pretty good! I ate one and kept the other. however, it melted and everything got ruined ): arghhh. anyways, school was stupid and looooooong and I literally had to live half day without my baby G. TOMORROW'S GON BE ANOTHER DAY WITHOUT YOU. ):

so, my weekend! one of those weekends which I'm willing to keep as memories. saturday was bestey's party. it was fun. did loads of crap. :} gossip, watched movie, played truth/dare/doubledare, eat. and I got bestey the COOLEST present ever! ^^ I swear. it's really cool.

Sunday, hmmmmm. I had to baby sit 2 angmo babies ; Mathieu & Thomthom. they're the cutest babies in this universe! I love them so much (: Mathieu, you just make my day.

last thing, before I end off. not really a good way to end off, but, I'm hating Singapore more and more day by day. I can't stand it.

1) the weather. BASICALLY.

2) the people, those I don't know. aren't friendly AT ALL. SG's a small country, shouldn't it be MORE united?!

3) singlish. WTF did you people come out with. -.-

4) too many traffic lights!!!

5) ITS TOO SMALL.

I could go on, but I really don't want to. I don't wanna spend my evening listing out everything I hate about Singapore. if you're offended by this part of the post, I'm sorry. it's my blog and it's how I feel. lastly, I'm not directing to anyone k! (:

peace out.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE GREATEST BEST FRIEND ON EARTH.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SILLY, YOU. ^^ whenever around, you never fail to put a smile on me. hehe. you're 15 now, same age as I am! 1 year away from our 16th. I hope you had good dinner with us. (hearts)

all I can think of right now is the word, "tired". got back not too long ago from school cuz we had basketball interhouse. we came in 3rd position but it was okay. (: I felt that we did well. first match, against Thoburn, not much effort put in because of nervousness. we won tho. ^^ however, second match, against GHK, we lost by a point! very good game. ^^ I'm proud of myself cuz I played well and now I'm just all tired. meh.

had dinner after everything ended. went Swensens. we bought bestey dinner. ^^ wheeee. good + tiring day.

the loveboard and G vandalized the school ground. tsktsk.

I'm so :@ because my love note to G and everyone else fell offfff. whatever, I guess, I'll have to do another one. ORR. I'll just make my own board. ^^ hehehe. sounds cool.

TY: Steffi, dyou know CPR?

Me: no.

TY: because you took my breath away.

awwww, TY! (:

I HATE MY BIO LECTURER. FULLSTOP.

hell yeah, I freaking hate him. HATE. well, he doesn't like me too. he doesn't give me notes even when I constantly ask for it. he doesn't explain the work I don't know and simply gives me a 0. he's just gonna be messing up my bio module. but yknow what, Mr Antonio, suck on that, I'm gonna be acing ALLLL the tests you give.

ok, enough of all the complaints and bitching and what not. haven't touched blogger, tumblr etc in ages. too lazy to. sigh. :/ oh, we're dancing to MP - cooler than me and I've already forgotten the steps. geeeez. school, school, school......

BESTEY'S TURNING 15 TOMORROW. (gazillion hearts) ^^

Day 8 - a moment.

that particular beautiful moment, when you asked me, just by the river and the surrounding, just not Singapore. fire works, roses and you. just making everything seem so perfect. (:

Day 9 - your beliefs.

my beliefs?

you love me, I love you more. you hate me, just don't talk to me or don't even look at me. cuz I'll just take it as you don't know me well enough or you're just plainly childish. (: OH AND MYOB, TYVM.

Day 10 - what you wore today.

school uniiiiii.

I miss my darling boy. ):

SCHOOL IS BACK -.-

hiiiii, I'm back. my weekend was just too short! I don't wanna go back to school yet. :/ ah well. at least there's something I look forward to for tomorrow;dance.

friday, G, bestey, Gavin, Jess, Darren came over. (: it was fun. watched movies and played blackjack. just so chill. (:

on saturday, we went over to some relative's house in amk. I brought G along cuz I was afraid I might get awkwardly neglected/ditched/bored etc. so yeah, the food was not that good. oh my god I swear I couldn't even recognize my cousins or any of my nephew/nieces, there's too many! so anyway, went to watch them sing in the ktv lounge and then came outto play black jack. lost $8. after which, went over to Jus' house. ^^ everything was much better. gambled and cam-whored. lost money. ): oh wells.

today, reached G's house at around 1115. went lunch with him and Clara over at Blooies while waiting for the rest to come. went back to G's place after everyone arrived. played blackjack, won $14 and then they started playing poker so Clara and I rest for awhile. got back to blackjack once they were done again. I won 6$ in total! haha, good enough. (:

so, that was my weekend. it was fun. I guess. but I need more days to sleep in! ah wells. I MISS MY AUSTRALIANS. I wanna play downball during in between breaks. but it's OUR thing! hehehe. ^^

Day 6 - your day.

it was AWESOME. ;) everything turned out to be fun and entertaining. just like chilling out with my mates. ^^

Day 7 - your best friend.

my teddybear best friend. he's awesome, sweet, cute, fun to be with. I just love him. (: cuz he's always there for me be it good or bad. I love youu! ^^

we keep it rockin' till 6am!

was too tired to post yesterday. reached home at 2ish! anyways, went for 11am mass. came back, big gang came. as usual, they're commonly used phrase is, "wow, you've grown so tall!", "woah, who's this young adult here?!" but the fact is, I'm not tall!

so, G came and it was super awkward for him. sorry! ): it's over anyway. after they left, we headed over to god-grandma's place for dinner. Kayla was there! hehehe. so yeah, we gambled and stuff. initially I was losing ALLLLL my $$. but at the end of the day, I won 70$ suprisingly. ^^

can't wait for later on toooo! cousins coming over for lunch. Jus'&family and a few of my noobs are coming over too. ^^ another night of gambling. WOOSH. I hope bestey and Gavin will be coming.

Day 4 - what you ate today.

noodles.

Day 5 - your definition of love.

someone who's willing to give up his time for you to take care of you, to be there for you whenever you need them, someone who's willing to give up they're all. someone who swears that they'd never ever lie/hurt/cheat on you. someone who keeps a pinky promise even tho it's a small thing. someone who'd suffer major heartbreak when they see you in tears.

GAVIN YOON.

I hate you.

for not replying me text message.

that's not it.

actually.

I HATE YOU FOR INTRODUCING ME TETRIS TO ME.

now I'm addicted. ):

anyways, HAPPY CNY PEOPLE!

I wanna go gamble with my friends.

:/

maybe on Sunday or something.

(:

aches.

yeah, I'm feeling the aches all over.

got it from dance.

and I just got a text saying I have dance tomorrow.

:/

I really don't wanna go but yet I wanna perform for v'day.

it's half day tomorrow, and CNY eve.

I think it's kinda stupid to have practice tomorrow.

oh wells.

just got back from G's house.

and I smell a lot like him.

from my nails, to my hair.

Day 3 - your parents.

they're the best people on earth. thank you, mom & dad, for everything. (: I love you guys a million, billion, gazillion.

OMG WHAT A LONG DAY.

okay, actually it isn't that bad.

I had class till 5-ish.

and dance started at 530.

it was fun. kinda.

but Sam isn't teaching us anymore. ):

oh wells.

new experience, I guess.

Alicia and Belle's with me! Yayness.

oh so I ended at 7ish.

and babe waited for me.

I love you so freaking much. (:

he bought me food too.

ughhhh. sucha sweetiepie.

anyway, yeah. I don't think I'd be able to laugh tomorrow.

we did 100 crunches and I'm doing probably 150 more later.

if I have the time.

yeah.

oh my god, it finally stopped raining after like, two days of endless rain.

THANK YOU LORD.

Day 2 - your first love.

ALKM. I still remember you. and ofcourse, clearly what you did to me. it was really heartbreaking and everything cuz you were my first. but I guess it's okay as we were still young and immature. I'm glad you still treat me as your little sister everything we've had together. thank you so much. although I know you might not see this, I just wanna thank you. thank you for taking care of me and loving me. also, thank you for crushing me into pieces and making me stronger. (:

Day 1 - introduce myself.

this is me, Steffi Natalie Joey Tan.

some people know me as, "SNJT, Jo, Fifi, Meffi, lil' one" and to my noobs, "nooblet"

I love my family, babyboy, 3 other most favourite boys and my closest friends.

I'm a dancer, drummer and semi-netballer.

I can't live my life without music.

I love taking pictures. they come as memories.

I love stars cuz they're pretty.

my favourite flowers - roses and dandelions.

I love puppies and rabbits. anything adorable.

except cats and hamsters.

I hate the sight of insects.

I detest balloons, clowns, copycats, liars and frogs.

bring any of them near me, I swear I'll cut your face up into gazillion pieces.

I MEAN IT.

I'm scared of thunder, yes I am. they're creepy.

I like looking at pretty boys.

my boyfriend's one of 'em.

I'm the only child.

but I have a few god-siblings.

I have faith in God.

I love the colour purple and pink.

I like being friendly to people (: that some people think I'm a flirt.

oh, I'm really simple.

love me? I love you double the amount. (:

hate me? leave me alone, I'll leave you alone.

I'll just take it as you don't understand me at all.

lastly, I wanna lay on a field, filled with dandelions. not in the hot sun, but in a cold windy day.

it's just a fantasy.

Tonight will be the night that I'll fall for you over again.

Had so much nice and sweet bonding with my baby today.
Hehe.
Thank god we're working this out.
And we spent our night doing what we use to do.
I love you.

Going CNY shopping with him tomorrow!
I can't go with mom cuz she's hella busy. ):
And defi cant go with dad cuz he'll be unwilling to pay and he wouldnt be able to decide what's nice and what's not.
Hohoho.

Cca fair today.
Joined DANCE! (:
Got Alicia, Isabel, Sha Lin and Sha May in dance with me!
Omg there's girl's basketball now. :/
Ksheng, idk, Jas, Luca, Gav, TY kept persuading me to join.
Thanks but no thanks!
I managed to persuade baby back into basketball instead!
Hehehe.
Luca and Gav were mean to me today. ):

I WILL DO IT.

Day 1 - introduce yourself.

Day 2 - your first love.

Day 3 - your parents.

Day 4 - what you ate today.

Day 5 - your definition of love.

Day 6 - your day.

Day 7 - your best friend.

Day 8 - A moment.

Day 9 - your beliefs.

Day 10 - what you wore today.

Day 11 - your siblings.

Day 12 - what's in your bag.

Day 13 - this week.

Day 14 - what you wore today.

Day 15 - your dreams.

Day 16 - your first kiss.

Day 17 - your favourite memory.

Day 18 - your favourite birthday.

Day 19 - something you regret.

Day 20 - this month.

Day 21 - another moment.

Day 22 - something that upsets you.

Day 23 - something that makes you feel better.

Day 24 - something that makes you cry.

Day 25 - a first.

Day 26 - your fears.

Day 27 - your favourite place.

Day 28 - something that you miss.

Day 29 - your aspirations.

Day 30 - one last moment.

so much for saying hi. hohoho.

Luca whacked me with his towel/shirt today.

owwww.

):

ITS RAINING.

Laugh your heart out

Dance in the rain

Cherish the moment

Ignore the pain

Live, Laugh, Love

Forgive & Forget

Life's too short to be

living in regrets

got that off Eszter's Facebook. totally made so much sense.

it's been raining the entire day today.

it's annoying cuz the weather's putting me to sleep.

omg, I seriously can't wait for dance to begin again.

1) motivation to slim down.

2) I haven't been dancing since forever, and I miss it.

3) Alicia, Isabel, Rebecca are joining me, I think! hopefully.

hohoho.

I'm so devastated.

I've been so busy and tired that I don't have the time to catch up with 90210.

UGHHHH.

):

oh my gosh, you're sucha suck up.

hurhurhur.

I'M REALLY TIRED OF ALWAYS SEEING YOUR FACE. GO AWAY, LEAVE ME ALONE.

turn on my mayday mode.

hi.

I just got back from school like, 20mins or so ago.

yes, I ended at 430 today. how lucky right.

-.-

went for Sushi tei with my noobs.

and went to AOR to change my class to friday, 330.

on top of that, I'm thinking of joining outside hiphop at like, 530.

yeah. busy fridays. which is good. keep me active, slim me down!

so it's 6 going 7,

and my eyes are like half opened already.

but I still have my History, English all undone.

FGHJKL.

maybe I'll do a bit of English and continue tomorrow.

maybe, maybe.

OH WHAT THE HECK.

where are all the ants coming from man.

go away, I don't need you anywhere near me. ANTS SUCKS.

omg, I seriously need to get CNY clothes, new school shoes and school bag.

I literally wore my hot pink Nikes today.

just so, to see who'd catch me.

hoho, Mr Png did.

oh wells.

6.

6, baby. we've made it through together for half a year.

whenever you're not around, I feel like something's missing.

you're the one, who can turn my life into a beautiful fairytale or crush me into pieces that I may never crawl back up again.

we've been through the toughest time together where we almost lost each other. where our hearts were both crushed to ends.

yet, we still held on tight to each other, promising with pinkys that we'll never let go, that we'll love each other till the end.

I don't know how much you love me, but I know myself, that I love you so much that words can't express.

I've never felt this way before for any other guy. It's mad, I know. I'm mad.

at times, I might be the worse girlfriend you have ever gotten.

especially after that huge quarrel we had, it might seem that I have lost trust in you.

but it's because I care, it's because I'm scared I might lose you.

I don't want to have another fight where we both have our eyes filled with tears or hurtful words which I said.

I really don't wish to have you leaving me because of some other girl or because you've stopped loving me.

and worse of all, I don't ever want you to lie to me.

I want to be that girl you can tell anything to. that girl which you'd spend your forever with. that girl which you'd never wanna hurt. just, that girl you're looking for.

I love you, darling.

I hope our love will have no end.

thank you for being so patient and showering me with so much love.

I really wonder, what am I without you.

my life.

I literally spent my weekend with her, lil' Kayla and family.

it was fun, I guess.

did my work till 1am, went for church the next morning, breakfast, Parkway, got Koi, ECP Carl's Jr., then homed.

Kayla's soooo cute. :}

anyway, omg, yknow what? I bought Koi from her! OMG, unbelievable. yuck. :/

I gave school a miss today cuz I wasn't feeling perfectly well to attend.

but then I regretted, I should have gone.

1) it's boring at home.

2) it's 6. I wanna see him, especially on our 6!!!

no, seriously, I rather be getting shit in school doing productive stuff than staying home, just, spacing out and wasting my day.

oh wells. I guess I'll read my History notes.

I gotta do.

1. Lose weight.
2. Go for CNY shopping.
3. Look up for Fridays dance class.
4. Change drums class to Wednesdays.

I LIKE. (Y)

and and and, new piercing. WHERE SHOULD I GET IT!?

...

I think she still likes you.

(.........)

Am I?

),:

TGIF.

OMG, Charles Lee made me laugh till I teared in a-math today. hillllllarious.

Ben and IDK conferenced with me 15mins ago when they're like, having their dinner beside each other. (y) LOL. yeah, and IDK was like, "Ben, dyou want my egg? I can't finish it". WHAT THE. DUDE YOU GUYS ARE BESIDE EACH OTHER. so yeah, before that, I shouted at this stupid old cab driver. he was literally shouting at me, complaining we were noisy and stuff, so I basically shouted back. couldn't take it. whatever.

I'm addicted to 90210 cuz I'm waiting for ML to show uppppp, omg.

ACW & ML. (hearts)

OMG.

my stalker mode just turned on. :3

baby, please don't kill me.

I CRAVE FOR CHEESEFRIES.

did I not tell you about what my bestfriend got me as a birthday gift? IT WAS SOMETHING UNEXPECTED! (: but I love it. anyways, it's a red wristband with BESTIE on it. awwww, love you. :}

anyways, first week of school. ugh, literally draining my energy. I get home and I'm dead tired. bummer. thank God it's friday tomorrow! FINALLY! oh, today, I got freaking annoyed with you. usually, I wouldn't really care. I just ignore your flaws. but this time, you seriously pushed against my limits.

I still can't get over the fact my birthday was such an amazing one! really. the best. I've said it before. but it's the truth. wahahhaa.

OMG, seriously, does anyone in this world know the cute dude's name in my Tumblr?!

6months, upcoming! ^^

THE BEST. I swear.

omg, I'm suppose to be somewhat turning in right now.

but because I had the best birthday year everrr, I'm gonna be a sweetie pie and share it with everyone!

on saturday, we went over to the club. my noobs went. we pool-ed, basketball-ed, beach-ed, semi swam and karaoked. it was okay. after that, we met mom at Taka for Korean BBQ. dinner was a blast!!!! I loved it. ^^ darling and bestey kept throwing me food. awww, sah sweet. (: HAHA. I loved dinner the most.

then on sunday, went out with Desiree and had dinner with godparents, parents, darling and Nikhil in the evening. it was a nice day too!

and not forgetting today. I received at least 170^ wishes!!! thank you everyone! school was tiring cuz I ended at 510. ): ON MY BIRTHDAY. could have given me a break. ): oh wells. so yeah. OH, I LOVE ALL MY PRESENTS. :D I LOVE LOVE LOVE.

I swear, it's the best birthday I've everrrrr had. :} gifts, wishes, celebrations, hugs and kisses were all amazing! and I managed to spend it with my dearests. LOVE EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU. (hearts)

J, I read your blog.

THANK YOU LORD FOR A GOOD START FOR 2011.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF!

damn right, I'm 15.

I had a splendid weekend!

I realize you don't exactly tell me everything, oh wells.

baby, be honest is this what you wanted?

I really can't choose who to believe. either you, or her. I know you wouldn't do sucha thing like that. cuz you love me. me, only. ain't I right? but on the other hand, it sounded a lot like you. really. I felt so heartbrokened, crushed, torn apart, cheated, insecure and fucked. I literally wanted to stab myself, you and her. EVERYONE. it made me feel like, I'm not good enough. am I really nothing? am I? I don't wanna be nothing to you. no, I don't. I wanna be someone you truly love from the bottom of your heart and with all your heart. I don't want to be cheated again. I don't wanna visit the past again. cuz all of them sucked. so please don't do what they did to me; break me apart. please? you were the one who taught me how to love again. don't be the one who teach me how to hate. I'm trying to forget this hard and fast and able to trust you wholeheartedly again. I don't like this, in fact, I freaking hate it. okay. I love you, and I don't want what we have to be gone just like that. we still have a lot more to go through and see together. you're the only one I trusted my heart with, please don't break it. it's fragile.

so darling, be honest, am I really not good enough? hmm?

I'm on my way home!

Just left Justina's place.
Brought teh tarik for Godpa as promised!
Ain't I a sweetheart?! Jokes.
Omgz. J and I were like hamsters who stalk and eavesdrop.
Hmmmmm.
We are the hamsters, my friends!
Hehe. :}

School tomorrow, bummer!
That's why I'm blogging thru my phone.
We're just going back to get our timetable and stuffs. :/
Sucha waste of time. Oh wells.
And all of us aren't in the same class!
),:
I liked my previous class. Kinda.
We'll see how everything goes.

Oh ya! We saw this girl who looks exactly like J.
Okay not exactly. But 80%!
it's mad. Insanity I say.
Her name is Natalie something.
Aren't we stalkers hmm.

Oh! I did my nails at fareast with Carey.
$35. Thinking it was $4. Scamzzzz!!
I practically romed around town with her and I was the one leading the way.
Omg proud of myself ttm.
Hehe. :}

Yawnnnnnz.

OMG IT'S HERE!

:D :D :D,

my first post ever with my MACBOOK AIR!!!!!!

oh my god, I love itttt.

it's so freaking tiny, but the best part of it, ITS LIGHT.

sank you mummy!!!!!

(L)

oh, another good news. (:

Jie, I know how much you got for your Os.

well done. :}

on the other hand,

I received a call from mom over at the party just now.

it was about godpa in hospital.

I hope he's alright and everything.

(L)

BBQ PARTY WAS A SUCCESS. I'MMA BLOG ABOUT IT LATER. ^^

oh.

3. Your favourite television programme.

How I Met Your Mother. ^^

CHALLENGE ACCEPTED.

this is gonna be fun. ;)

1am, why am I still awake?

had dinner with mom, love and aunty Delia. it was pretty good, I must say (y). oh uhm, before that, we went over to Paragon to hunt for my birthday present. I saw this skirt I liked, but babe said it was stupid to be receiving just a skirt for a birthday gift. kinda true. so yeah. MOM'S GETTING ME A MAC BOOK PRO INSTEAD. (Y)(Y)(Y). I'll be replacing it with my old desktop which I would be giving away. I haven't seen it yet :/, but I think it's a pretty good deal. I'm still keeping my VAIO tho, that mean's I'm gonna be both a PC user and a MAC user. WHEEEE HARDCORE.

anyways, didn't I not comment on my hair? well, fringe. but oh, I love it. (: it's straight, but it's curling in towards my face. LIKE. thank you uncle Vincent!!!! like, for once, I'm actually satisfied with my fringe. pssst, it only happens in a life time. and I think I'll be sticking to this hairstyle for the time being. :}

2. Talk about your piercings or tattoos, if you have any.

my naval piercing. I actually love it and don't regret at all. :}

9 more days.

1. Your middle name, and how you feel about it.

Joey. I like it, it's short but kinda meaningful. (:

I practically chilled out at home today. all I really did was pack my room, which is only 1/3 done, and then surfed the net. Skype-ing with love and Ed right now! but I'm going to bed like, pretty soon. so yeah. this staying up late, chatting with friends kinda reminds me of the past. oh wells.

I hate this, really. my hair's always amazing at wrong times. Fghjkl.

I'll be fifteen soon. and it's gonna be the best party my friends have ever attended in their entire life. suck it.

this is to the person I truly love,

Dear you,

5 months, on our journey to the 6th. you're the longest I've ever lasted, the best among the rest and definitely the one I truly love the most. I'm seriously impressed with how patient you are with me and how you can tolerate my madness. we've gone thru thick and thin whilst holding on to each other and I'm expressing everything out here cuz I'm satisfied enough to show the world what brilliant and lovely boy I have.

it's amazing how you'd go all out just to be with me or make me smile. Eg 1, New Year's Eve. despite your parents' threats, you still took the risk. Eg 2, when I had a hard time in ACS and I was so close into transferring, you promised you'd talk to your parents just to be with me even though you clearly knew that they didn't like any other international schools.

You'd always be there to catch me when I fall. always the one who will hug me tight, telling me "I'm here, everything's gonna be alright". always the one who would risk dirtying your plain white tees just to wipe away my tears cuz you don't ever wanna see me cry. always the one who would stay up late just w8ing for me to knock off to dream land.

no matter how many crazy or tiny arguments we've had, it'll never last more than just a day. and you'd always make it as perfect as before.

I really wanna thank you for buying so many expensive gifts for me. from T&C necklace, to fluffed up teddy bear, to juicy hoodie, to drum sticks and the sexiest guitar EVER. I wanna thank you for changing my life, for bringing so much happiness in my life that I've never ever had, for always being there and taking care of me, for risking so much crazy shits for me and lastly for being the bestest boyfriend anyone could ever had. you're like a dream boy for every girl, really.

I just wanna say, no matter how crazy you may get, how jealous you can get and all other crazy things about you added up together, thank you for everything, I will never let go darling and, from the bottom of my heart, I love you more than anyone can ever imagine.

I love you, Geoffrey. (:

with lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots of love,

Steffi Natalie Joey Tan.

IMMA HAPPY KID. (:

so yesterday, we watched 'The Tourist'. it was pretty okay. at the start of the movie, it was kinda boring and then it got complicated. well, that's to me. but its the kind of movie which I wouldn't mind watching again. (:

and for today, I literally spent 2hours + doing my hair. it's slightly shorter than before and I coloured it again. accompanied mom to pay for school fees, get the booklist and made noise about my ezlink card which I haven't received for approximately 6months. yep, and then some political drama within them began which mom and I got caught in. yeah, whatever. oh, had lunch at Crystal Jade and went to the pet shop!!! :}

so, I met love, Edward and Carey over at PS. just roamed around aimlessly until someone thought of something to do. we ended up walking all the way to Cine, to play pool. I didn't really play cuz I wasn't exactly comfortable with the environment there. yeah. oh, before we left the pool place, they gave me a sweet surprise. the guitar, Edward was carrying the entire time, which I thought was his, ended up to be my birthday gift from my dearest lovely boy. ♥ OH, HE BOUGHT ME FLIP-FLOPS AND DRUM STICKS TOOWOO. I love you tons boy. (: so we walked to T.G.I.Fridays to chill out. I bought an anklet for myself too! ♥. from there, we all left cuz it was pretty much getting late. oh wells, at least I had some time with 'em. (:

UGH. I have to wake up at 8.30 tomorrow, gonna be cycling at ECP. I seriously dread waking up this early, and knowing that I would be able to sleep a few more hours, annoys the hell outta me. but it's okay, maybe, morning cycle might help with the burning of fats.

I was hoping to get at least one song done on guitar by tonight. but no, I realized I forgot every single thing taught the moment I held the guitar. so I ended up learning off the web. but this time, I wrote it down! HA-HA. I tried Bleed(Hot Chelle Rae) to Lips of an Angel to Chasing cars to Beautiful Soul. but I still can't play a single song. they were either too complicating, or they had too many same chords in one bar. so yeah, as anyone ever expected, I gave up. I ended up playing nursery rhymes for mom and Creamie to sleep.

okay, pretty wordy post. just some pictures and I'm off!